It'll soon be the end of 2020 and if I have a resolution for next year, it's to live life to the full. All the limits that have been placed on our lives this year have really brought this home to me. There have been things that I wanted to do that I couldn't do which, it struck me, I could have done in the past but didn't. Never again, I hope, will I say to myself, 'next year, perhaps', when I could do whatever it might be sooner.
Near the top of my list of things to do is to go down to Kent and Sussex again. I think I've said before that I want to visit the shingle at Dungeness at least once and I'd like to revisit Virginia Woolf's house in Rodmell. I have friends down there (and in and around London) I'd like to see. I'd like to go to London, too. I want to go to North Wales - this has been the first year for almost thirty years when I've not spent at least a fortnight of my life there. We've never owned a 'second home' there but have often thought of emigrating in the past - perhaps to somewhere near Porthmadog. We're not likely to do that now and in a way I'm pleased we didn't. If we actually lived there, where on earth would we go if we wanted to get away from it all?
I'm not getting too excited, though. I'm not a toddler anymore: I know there's more to life than listing all the things you want and getting them. And there are still dark days ahead, even if the government gets everything right for the next few months. If their record so far is anything to go by, though, that's highly unlikely.
It may be, of course, that when it does become possible to resume our ordinary lives, the things I actually want to do will be the simple things: browsing in second hand book shops, visiting a coffee shop, having friends to stay. And it would wrong to say that our day-to-day experience through the tiers and lockdowns has been all bad. I didn't realise I enjoyed cooking as much as I did. I have no intention of traipsing round supermarkets again if I can possibly get stuff delivered. We've used a lot of delivery services (a mix: some local, some not) and see no reason to stop so doing. It seems to be good for us and good for the businesses involved. For example, we've started getting milk delivered. Milk delivery services, I believe, have done really well this year.
That's all still in the future, though, and if 2020 has taught me one thing, it's to be circumspect. We're going to be washing our bananas here for a while yet.